Happy Anniversary

Thursday January 27th 2011 is my one year anniversary but Anthony works, so I figured no big deal we will just have to spend time together on Sunday or whatever day he has off closest to the date. He had this last Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday off but his computer broke on Sunday so we haven't been able to spend any time together and it's driving me insane because I intend to spend the rest of my life with him but I feel like we are drifting apart. I don't know what I should do because I know I love him but its killing me that we always have difficulties spending time together either one of us is busy or we just aren't talking which I guess is nice because it shows how comfortable we are with each other hough it would be nice to have a conversation with him more than once every 5 times we "talk" ugh this is just horrible.

idk what to do

I'm so damn scared, idk how to prepare for this. Anthony is coming in may for prom and I'm already spazzing about everything. We won't get to spend much time together but I'm gonna meet him for the first time our love is a platonic love (love of the mind) which is perfect in my opinion but now I have those teenage girl fears telling me that my hair is too frizzy and that I need to lose weight and so on and so forth jezus my brain is fried and it's so damn far in advance that I can't complain about it to my usual guy, Justin. Kill me now!

Lost

I feel like my world is falling apart i don't know what to so anymore. I'm surrounded by friends but I'm so damn lonely it's killing me.